things we make em say

at the door, the protocal for those taking the cover is to get the $, to those entering, the protocal is to get out of paying it.
to make both parties happy, I've created a "pass phrase" system.

Basically, it goes a little something like:
a statement you have to say like you mean
an answer to a question
an example of something

so far:
"You are ridiculously good looking"

"Im here for the gang bang"

Tell the door man a joke

Sing the door man a song

Either
1. say and explain a yiddish word
2. explain how the easter bunny is relevant to easter

found on facebook

Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it.

da:philosophy

It's like this.
Pretty much anything goes.

Who do you wanna be when you grow up?
Who can you be in this moment.
then will come and go
live now.
Anything but part of the comfort herd.

Look, it's this simple:
If you LIVE:
LIVE-OUT-LOUD; LIVE WITHIN;LIVE-WITHOUT.
Choose your meaning and wear it out.
Let the askers and borrowers try to figure you out.
Because you're a big freakin' confusion puzzle of is-ing & be-ing.

Think super. Go super. be super.
personify art--music--sex--creation--philosophy--ideas
breathe them
drink them
wear them
synthesize them into your expression

knock it off

knock it off.
stop all this sappy shit.
i'm so tired of being sad.
i tell them over and over and over that i'm not good at it.
and, i'm really , really, really not.
when it hurts. it hurts so much.
i know im doing the "right" thing, but it......

read some zen
watch a sad movie
allow the tears to fall

sit solo
it's what you've asked for
it's what you've fought for
sit solo . sit solo . sit solo.

make the compilation of sad songs
write the letters you'll never send

sit solo
solo...... ?
never been alone
never been a part
never been anything but in between
sitting solo
sit solo

have another drink
try this out
advice from my lips

should i go
should i remain.

somewhere only we know.
somewhere only

listen to music that makes you sad. just cuz it will. and it'll create that reaction you are'nt used to.
So, Yea...It's Different.
It's Odd.
I'ts "not like YOU"

sit solo.

found it!

THE song.
everytime. every single time.
there is a song, a album, a "on repeat" tune...

this is it for eXactly RIGHT now....

Save me save me save me wooh

I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh

Why would I think such things
Crazy thoughts have quick wings
Gaining momentum fast
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind
To a fake fantasy

And none of these
thoughts are real
So why is it that I feel
So cut up and so bad
I need to take control
Coz my mind is on a roll
And it isn't listening to me

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Ok so here we go
If it works I'll let you know
One two three I say stop

league of my own

It's never easy to walk away from something.
A job.
A car.
A friend.
A lover.
A mate.....

But sometimes the only thing you can do is walk away.
Because.
Because of all the excuses you make up to rationalize your actions.
Because your actions are taking over for you.
They stand in place sometimes when you just "know" things aren't "right"

It's still never easy.
It still creates feelings you don't want to have, feelings you have no idea how to deal with.

Sometimes you're lucky and something happens that is so unforgivable, it creates a wall....builds upon the wall really.......





I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
Down to the bottom

I wanted a junction, and often there was one
You'd surface face first and we'd share thought bubbles
and I still believe in the phrases that we breathed
but I know the distance isn't fair to cross

I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
wanted you nearer

Your depths made a pressure that punctured my works
and all your fluids couldn't tolerate the force of my thirst
I love the place, where we shared our tiny grace
But just because it's real don't mean it's going to work

I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
wanted you nearer

and true affection floats
true affection sinks like a stone
I never felt so close
I never felt so all alone

I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
wanted you nearer

words w/o a melody

simply reading words can't transcend the meaning of the moment the way they do with a melody.

so, here are the words and the music....
choose how you read them.
inevitably, they'll be different depending on where you are personally coming from.
.....where i'm coming from?
from a land of emotional confusion.
a land lost where each path looks just as frightening and hopeful as the other.
a land found where pretending the things you only nightmare about actually exist....

in this land, i found this song and found the lyrics to hit the melody just the way they should in order to relate to another the feeling.
with this.....

here it is

There's a broken beam inside of the big big bridge
I guess that whole thing is caving in
Maybe it is time I learn how to swim
I'll be a dolphin, I'll be a dolphin

Sometimes I think I'm breaking down
And other times I think that I'm fine
But something got into my engine
It slowed me down
Now I gotta turn this whole thing around

I'm gonna be a dolphin
Gonna be a dolphin
I'm gonna be a dolphin
Gonna be a dolphin

There's not a lot I believe anymore
I mistrust everything I had been longing for
There's not a lot that I know anymore
But I know if good bridge is burning

You gotta be a dolphin...You gotta be a dolphin
You gotta be a dolphin...You gotta be a dolphin

Sometimes I think you're crazy and sick
And other time I think you're so fine
But I know I'm in dange 'cause you feel like a stranger
And I know that something's going give

When I dive into that ocean
God I hope I don't sink like a stone -- no
I'm gonna move like a dolphin
There may be a lot I don't know about you
But I know if I don't swim
I'm already drowning
'Cause a broken bridge
Is a broken bridge
So I swim to you now
Here I come...Here I come
Here I come...Here I come
I'll be a dolphin

There's a broken beam inside of the big big bridge
I guess that this time I'll have swim (I'll swim...)

and, here's the tune.

art vs fashion

they say, "you should really meet Allison"
they say, "you should really meet jiLL"

she says, "art parties are way fun"
she says "fashion parties are way fun"