knock it off

knock it off.
stop all this sappy shit.
i'm so tired of being sad.
i tell them over and over and over that i'm not good at it.
and, i'm really , really, really not.
when it hurts. it hurts so much.
i know im doing the "right" thing, but it......

read some zen
watch a sad movie
allow the tears to fall

sit solo
it's what you've asked for
it's what you've fought for
sit solo . sit solo . sit solo.

make the compilation of sad songs
write the letters you'll never send

sit solo
solo...... ?
never been alone
never been a part
never been anything but in between
sitting solo
sit solo

have another drink
try this out
advice from my lips

should i go
should i remain.

somewhere only we know.
somewhere only

listen to music that makes you sad. just cuz it will. and it'll create that reaction you are'nt used to.
So, Yea...It's Different.
It's Odd.
I'ts "not like YOU"

sit solo.

found it!

THE song.
everytime. every single time.
there is a song, a album, a "on repeat" tune...

this is it for eXactly RIGHT now....

Save me save me save me wooh

I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh

Why would I think such things
Crazy thoughts have quick wings
Gaining momentum fast
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind
To a fake fantasy

And none of these
thoughts are real
So why is it that I feel
So cut up and so bad
I need to take control
Coz my mind is on a roll
And it isn't listening to me

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Ok so here we go
If it works I'll let you know
One two three I say stop

league of my own

It's never easy to walk away from something.
A job.
A car.
A friend.
A lover.
A mate.....

But sometimes the only thing you can do is walk away.
Because.
Because of all the excuses you make up to rationalize your actions.
Because your actions are taking over for you.
They stand in place sometimes when you just "know" things aren't "right"

It's still never easy.
It still creates feelings you don't want to have, feelings you have no idea how to deal with.

Sometimes you're lucky and something happens that is so unforgivable, it creates a wall....builds upon the wall really.......





I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
Down to the bottom

I wanted a junction, and often there was one
You'd surface face first and we'd share thought bubbles
and I still believe in the phrases that we breathed
but I know the distance isn't fair to cross

I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
wanted you nearer

Your depths made a pressure that punctured my works
and all your fluids couldn't tolerate the force of my thirst
I love the place, where we shared our tiny grace
But just because it's real don't mean it's going to work

I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
wanted you nearer

and true affection floats
true affection sinks like a stone
I never felt so close
I never felt so all alone

I was out of your league....
and you were twenty thousand underneath the sea
Waving affections
You were out of my league
at a distance that I didn't want to see
wanted you nearer